Last Updated: March 25th, 2019
Where to start…
Well, first things first — welcome to my newly designed website! I hope that you find it easy to navigate and find all that you wish to discover.
My name is Zealon. Or well, that's my name online at least. Offline, and in the real world, my name is Jamie. Yeah, it's not the most interesting name, but it's mine. That's what my mother decided to name me. Granted, after her own mother prohibiting her to name me Gaige, for whatever reason. Shame. I quite like that name.
Regardless, Zealon was the identity I chose to go by on the world wide web, and it's been that way since the days of netscape and 56k. I feel more of a connection to that than either of those previously stated names, which is likely due to the fact that I've gone by my alias for almost as long as I have been alive. Wild, huh?
However, at the end of the day, I am just your everyday netizen that spends most of the time staring at a computer screen, for both work and leisure. I'm not the most physically active of people, but I'm most certainly not the least active either. Between the occasional workout, I actually do enjoy going for long walks and bicycle rides — they're incredibly relaxing to me, and allow me to unwind and clear my thoughts. I'm more likely to go out for a long walk during moments of heightened stress, regardless of the weather.
When it comes to who I am, there's really not a whole lot that I'd even deem being interesting or unique, as to quote:
“I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough.”
That quote is one of a few that I feel applies to my life in such a way that it paints a near perfect image of how I feel about my life in general.
— Nicholas Sparks; The Notebook (2004)
Somehow, I happened to form a relationship with a most spectacular woman named Gina along the way. I do not solely see her as my partner or wife — she is also my best friend, and somebody that I can always rely on. I am incredibly proud of this woman and will forever cherish her companionship with the highest of regards. She is most definitely what some would say a ‘diamond in the rough’, in my eyes.
As of writing this I live in the City of London, situated in the heart of the United Kingdom. Now, I say ‘as of writing this’ because I am currently in the process of immigrating to the United States, to be with my significant other and her family. Yes, we started our relationship with an ocean between us. Though, we have had very little issue in keeping everything on the right track and making each other happy.
This comes after vowing never to allow myself to succumb to a long-distance relationship, after witnessing many falling into a pit of despair, as a by-product of failed attempts. Funny how that happens, no?
Though, that’s not to say that I was a stranger to despair.
Much of my life had been spent identifying as something that just was never going to make me feel truly happy, where I shared most days with a trusty companion known as ‘depression’. There were many times throughout my life where I honestly felt like I just was not fit for this world, and that I wasn’t ‘good enough’.
It all started when I was a child, after going through the kind of trauma no parent would ever wish for their offspring to experience. Unfortunately, with me being the black sheep in the family, my ‘parents’ seemed but all too unphased by the fact that my innocence was taken away from me, and that I no longer had any form of a ‘childhood’, as the colour had eroded away and made my world incredibly bleak.
I won’t get into the gruesome details as what happened, but I can say that it started a chain reaction of unfortunate events, all of which occurred throughout my childhood, and continued to follow me all the way up to adulthood.
Even though I am no longer haunted by any such past — I have taken all that I have experienced and channelled it into the strength and motivation that I have today, where I will never allow myself to fall, and be hounded by those that sought ill will upon my being.
I think that's enough for now; I must applaud you for setting aside some time to read through what I have written here. I hope that I have left a good impression on you.
Want to continue reading? I'll eventually get around to writing more blog posts.
For now, however, I feel as if another quote seems most fitting right now:
Good morning, and in case I don't see ya: Good afternoon, good evening, and good night!
Thanks for stopping by!
—Jim Carrey; The Truman Show (1998)
My first experience with any form of media creation was on a website called Newgrounds in 2006; I started out with some terribly done flash videos, followed by some music tracks that I had created with a music creator called MAGIX — y'know, the most basic kind of stuff you'd expect from a young teen.
A short while after, I stumbled across YouTube and Grouper, and began creating silly little animated music videos using clips from my favourite games and anime shows at the time. I eventually moved on to recording myself with a potato of a webcam doing timelapses of drawing subpar artwork that I would later upload to deviantArt. They were all things that I knew weren't going to take off or go anywhere, but each leaving me feeling proud, with a sense of accomplishment nonetheless. I mean, hey, I was like 13 at the time; I didn't exactly have the highest of goals back then.
Eventually my creativity became solely reserved for coding and rudimentary graphics design as I grew older, with the occasional video uploaded to my former YouTube channel. Some videos would be educational, in a sense of helping people learn how to do certain things. Others would be showing off things I created in a virtual space like Second Life. But the rest of the time, they would just be random things I put together out of sheer boredom, where most of the time they were just poorly put together videos that were void of any actual content.
Now, however, I have regained my creative thirst, and able to broadcast my creativity live on platforms such as Twitch and Mixer, where everybody is welcome to come and join me in my adventures online, whether that be on a video game, or going through some code. All the while being able to share my creations, and take in inspiration of everyone else's creations in my community server on Discord.
Discord is one of the reasons that I am as social as I am right now. Before that, Mumble, TeamSpeak and Ventrillo aided my social interactions, though certainly not as prominent. I'm not as social as some people out there, but I'm a thousand times less anti-social than I was before Discord became a thing. I would very rarely talk to anybody; I wouldn't really share updates, or try to keep in touch with anyone; I didn't have the connections that I have now. Discord helped me through a lot. It was there, and the people in it, when I was going through some of the most serious events in my life. I am fairly sure that I would be a lot more socially awkward without it.
In the years that have passed from using Discord, I have been a part of and managed many communities. I have met awesome new people and learned a lot when it comes to interacting with people. Each experience has allowed me to drastically improve myself, especially when it comes down to how I present myself to others. All of this because of the ease and accessibility that Discord provides.
I greatly appreciate Discord and all its staff—including the Wumpus—as without it, I would not dare allow myself to enter any social environment.
Discord has also allowed me to create the community known as Coffee & Power, of which I use relatively heavily, and provide the building blocks for its inhabitants to make use of.
For about as long as I've owned a computer, I have always been interested in livestreaming. When I was around twelve years old I ended up turning my Playstation 2's EyeToy into a working webcam, where I would have it pointed at my TV. Myself and several others would call into a group chat on MSN Messenger, sharing each other's gaming experiences, all talking and having a blast with our own thing. Since then, I've jumped from platform to platform to find the feelings I had back when I was just a stupid teenager with an EyeToy. And multi-user streaming on Discord has definitely regained that feeling for me. However, that doesn't necessarily work for an audience larger than just a handful of friends.
Beam, Hitbox, iNSTAGIB, Justin TV, own3D, Twitch, Ustream, Xfire, YouTube — These are all websites and services that I've made use of when it comes to streaming video over the internet, both in the past and in the present. However, my first time ever streaming an actual direct capture of my desktop was using a program called sc2gears, back in 2010. Before then, I would just position my webcam in front of my screen, in a spot that made for relatively decent image quality. Eventually I even acquired an Elgato Capture Card, that ran at 30 FPS, of which I used on iNSTAGIB and Hitbox, as I tried to avoid Twitch like the plague, due to the toxicity that it had come to be known for.
However, as of right now, my main platforms for streaming just so happens to be on both Mixer and Twitch — where I periodically go live during the weekdays—Monday through Friday—between the hours of 13:00 and 20:30 GMT, at varying hours.
View my Highlights!
This is something that I will eventually get around to. Enjoy this picture of an alpaca in the meantime:
Image Source: That's Farming
This is where all my highlights and clips from VODs will be displayed here, once I get around to finishing this section.